Speaking of my shop.. I was packing orders and my FAVORITE old coworker text me to tell me the "latest" gossip. Her texting me triggered the thought that based on the time of day I knew she had just got back from lunch, and with the first chance she got she left the desk to tell me(We were desk agents at a hotel downtown Portland together for the last 4 years). I was instantly hit with the overwhelming stress feeling I used to get while working there. Being that we were ALWAYS under staffed.. I sat there taping "Here Comes the Bride" tags on my orders, filling the package with assortments of pretty colored hearts. I had a damn breath of fresh air! I have a dream job! I sleep in. I drink coffee. I start work when I want to, and take as many orders as I can handle. I don't have anyone on my back. I don't have to watch my back! I don't have to do any damn thing except make sure the bills are paid. No negative interactions, no drama! I am not writing this to brag. I just want to possibly inspire the 'unhappy' to find a way out!
I lived by this quote for a long time.. It is one of my favorites, "I don't want to earn my living, I want to live." by Oscar Wilde. I repeated it in my head at work. I knew that by saving every dime of money possible. I could find my way out of this stressful life. I would buy myself freedom. This kind of life is not 'real'. Our human experience is not meant to be spent dreading each day. We have purpose. I had psychos yelling in my face about how they specifically asked for a river view room 2 years ago. They want compensation for someone "lying" to them. No complaints about our lack of mini bar were relevant to our human experience. None of it was important. I kept my smile.. Yes it was fake. I was belittled. As if I made decisions for the company. As if I was in charge of the events going on on a Friday night. Like I was in charge of the amount of bums on Portland streets! It was rare to come across a genuine person. I always sincerely thanked someone for their kindness, and I let them know how rare it was to come across. I didn't EVER suck it up for the sake of keeping my job. I sucked it up for my future, and my way out! I found a goal with the one I love. We were to buy a house "away from it all". We would live a simpler life. Enjoy our human experience in a natural environment. Away from every stress that we had. We ran, and I suggest that you do the same! Find a goal, get a hobby and make some money. Live simpler. Find happiness! Use the thing that sucks the life out of you as a tool to get to where you REALLY want to be. I will end this with my second favorite quote, "The two most important days of your life are the day you are born, and the day you find out why." -Mark Twain
